I just realized what my biggest flaw at the moment has been...
...thanks to message conversation with my schoolmate. I realized I'm too lenient, that I should be firmer what comes toward myself. That if I offer my help and other one denies it, but later on asks it, I should be right to way all hurt and show it, instead later on, just so I wouldn't be labelled as 'nasty person'. That has happened to me more than once and I've suffered lot o
because of that. I've always been the 'bad guy', because I wasn't enough self-aware about the fact I should demand respect and not just wait other one will realize that all quietly and be thankful from my help. I've helped many people do things for them without a single 'thank you' or otherwise gratefulness and just let them carry on that, without demanding right to way 'I helped you, so where is my thank you? I've my pride too, so show me some gratefulness!' Maybe not such harsh mannerism is good, but I should learn how to make people understand that I too wish gratefulness or...something
. That if they want my help in the future too or something like that, I shouldn't always be the last option for them. The conversation with my schoolmate showed me that. That because I'm basically her last option, she will take me. And since I usually foolishly disagree at this point, I'm the 'bad guy'. I should had been right to way when she was all 'nah, I'll at first ask someone other' all 'okay fine, my offers off'. Or something like that.
I'm kind of glad I realized that, but I know it'll probably take lot of time before I'll learn to demand respect. I'm very...'lenient' to say. That isn't exactly the right word for it, but I think the best example would be like training a cat: if the cat is defecating inside your house and you want teach it to be housebroken, the best way is to grab its neck and hit its rhinarium into it right to way. If you do that few days later, it won't remember that and it'll be all confused why you did that. With people it appears to be the same: if they throw you with sh!t the best way is to grab their neck and make them smell it, so they won't do it again.